I made a mistake. I went looking for a khotba and ended up watching a talk show. It was a panel discussion which included two Indian men I admire: Dr. Zakir Naik (the founder of Peace TV) and Sharukh Khan (Bollywood Superstar). I started watching and got drawn into the discussion. Who is a Moderate Muslim?
Was "My Name is Khan" a good representation of Islam in the media?
Honestly, the whole thing brought me down. It was not what I needed. I didn't need one more time picking at the scabs on the ummah. We all spend enough time hearing about discrimination by association of Muslim-born terrorists, hijabs and kufis as unnecessary outward symbols, and non-practicing Muslims who can't believe their brothers and sisters are so tight with their faith.
I don't need one more talk like this.
What I needed was a khotba. A khotba is not for the general audience. A khotba is for us Muslims. It gets tiring to always be part of a minority being talked about by the majority. It is a time for unifying; not dividing and dissecting. It's a positive experience not a negative. At the end of a khotba, there is a feeling of adding to one's spiritual life. By contrast, the end of a religious and cultural debate feels alienating; not only from Non-Muslims by from Non-practising Muslims.
Inshahallah, this will be the last time I make this mistake. A talking head does not a khotba make.